mis-er-a-ble

warning: an emo post

ah... multiply is pissing me off... loading page is so slow and and i start to get spams messages that won't go off ... i just don't know how to delete them... but then again, i didn't even bother to read them..... so.. don't care lar...

thought that i am not going to post about this here... but then it is here... don't ask me why it is here... i have no idea why i went against my first decision...

i am feeling miserable for the pass 1 week after some comment / message i receive from someone. i tried so hard to ignore those unpleasant feelings that are inside me but i can't help but keep on thinking about it and wonder does that person really meant what was said to me? or do that person really care about me so much till that person wanna make me miserable about it or does that person hate me and therefore playing a prank on me? or was that someone trying to hint me about something and waiting for a reply from me?

i always have hunches and instincts about certain problems/situation i have (normally i am always correct) but this time... i am really clueless about it....

i wonder ..... i wonder and i wonder........what should i do?

my assignments are suffering and i am deprive from good night sleeps... and therefore i am falling sick again for the umpteenth time this semester... with flu this time...DAMN!

another thing is.... i am suffering from assignment stress!!! my animation trailer is so sucky and my digital imaging assignment is still as bad and smelly as a piece of big, ugly shit sitting on the blank canvas in my psd (photoshop format) file. HELP!!! really hate that subject so badly cos it is really a time wasting subject and the lecturer is damn boring (not that he's not good lar.. he's nice but then his classes and the lessons are plain boring) and that's one of the reason its getting on my nerves......

oki... i am going off for now to watch the latest episode of America next top model!

pissing off and signing off now.......