Journey so far ...

Miss Me?

2011-11-27T11:50:00.008+08:00

First and foremost, like I always do when I am "back" after my "disappearance" with no new updates:

I AM SORRY.

My life (since I last blog), like many others have been like on a roller coaster ride - there're the ups, the downs and the unexpected turns. Here's my story:

On life:

Earlier this year, if you remember my post on my new year resolution for this year (I know this is way too early to talk about new year resolution and that I should leave it till end of the year to do my evaluation and my personal "verdict" but well.... I am always special :P When I wanna do it, i do it. Nothing can stop me nor will time make any difference)...here's how well I've faired...so far:

Resolution 1: Love myself and my family more

Not too sure about if I am loving myself more. I've done many things to myself that I am not proud of (eg: relying on pills to put me to sleep, cry to sleep) but the same time, I've came to learn many things about myself this year and many decisions and things I did are all based on putting myself and m family above all others. I've pampered myself with many little things...so i guess I did love myself more? :D

and earlier first half of the year, there's a new addition member to my family. Please give a big smile and welcome my nephew JJ

Me carrying JJ when he's a month old.

Resolution 2: Sponsor a child

If you've been following my blog all this while (link), you know that I've fulfilled this resolution earlier of the year :D Here's a few snapshots of recent updates from my son in China....

Peng Xin's latest picture

He said his dream is to become a Police!

and he drew me 2 bunnies :D

And guess what, I've just signed up for one of UNICEF's thingy to help prevent/fight HIV/AIDS... (some sort of that...) a few hours ago. If God is blessing me, I would love to use His blessing by helping others in need :D BTW, Happy Thanksgiving!

Resolution 3: Join a marathon

Proud to say, I've completed 3 race this year - all within the given time (still far away from my own personal best I set 10 years ago). Don't judge yet! Ironwoman, I am not - just 10km race each.

Here's one of my finisher medal:

My Adidas KOTR 2011 Finisher Medal

Resolution 4: Go on a holiday trip

This year, I have the opportunity to reward myself with 3 trips Hatyai, Thailand, Singapore, and Medan, Indonesia.

All 3 trips with good friends and family. I feel blessed and had a great time!

Resolution 5: Do what I do best

Well, did not manage to get much paintball this year yet, done not many personal project, but definitely on a comeback on designing stuff. Have been doing some digital airbrushing and working on some personal art project. Will share when the time comes...stay tune!

Resolution 6: Be more forgiving towards others

I hope I've been more forgiving. Can't really judge myself on this. Nothing major had happen this year that needs me to be extremely forgiving....maybe just one thing (let's leave this to talk on anther time, another post and another day)

Resolution 7: Get myself a pet

Does Monster Pet on iPhone counts? LOL!

Resolution 8: Party Hard

Did not party hard, but I've had many great time and celebration with friends and family.

Resolution 9: Save some money

Unfortunately, this was a hard resolution :( Living in the capital city - away from home is not the ideal option for saving money. But I am still trying... fingers crossed with my new job (YES! got a new job. more details below...read on)

Resolution 10: Get a house

When I wrote this resolution earlier this year, I know this is the hardest among all. Well, I try to give it a shot and the time is just not right YET. So, next year perhaps?

On work

Well, started a new job earlier this week. I'm still on probation period, so if everything goes well, hopefully I'll be doing what I love doing for good :D

On personal matters

Hmm....well....it's complicated. A year had passed and things are still as complicated as ever. But for the past few days (I've been contemplating for quite a while to be honest), I've decided that it is time to end and move on.... I've had enough. I know I've said this many, many times, but this time I've decided to make it right. Mr Big or not....I have to be Ms AWESOME! Welcome new life! :D

Said I won't cry

2011-08-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

heard this song through the radio while i was driving back earlier. The singer/writer (Kelly Poon from Singapore) said she wrote this song while she was going through a heartbreak (if I understand correctly....)

A nice song...a song that touches my heart...in a way :D

Love me then don't go...

2011-07-17T21:47:00.011+08:00

call her useless, the piece broken is still broken. the piece missing is still missing.

tired of pretending to be happy & tough. tired of lying to herself & others.

pathetically, silently hoping and praying.....

Until this time, I am still the same,
The loneliness of the night easily makes people hurt,
I don't dare to think too much,
Because I am all by myself.

Facing the moonllight, it draws out the silhouette,
Walking by the boundless and endless street,
I didn't hear any news about you,
That's why I'm thinking of you

Love me then don't go,
If you say, you don't love me,
I don't want to hear you really say it,
As it will give me a bit warmth again

Love me then don't go,
If you say, you don't love me,
I don't want to hear you really say it,
As it will give me a bit warmth again

And at this night, i've forgotten the lyrics,
Loneliness of the night easily makes people hurt,
I didn't hear any news about you,
Because I'm all by myself,
Facing moonlight, it draws out the silhouette,
Walking by the boundless and endless street all alone,
I didn't hear any news of you,
That's why I am thinking of you,

Love me then don't go,
If you say you don't love me,
I don't want to hear you really say it,
As it will give me a bit warmth again.

(translation taken from other website)

still hoping if time could reverse itself....she'll do things differently - but unfortunately, in the reality world, whatever done has been done. The hands of the clock don't move backwards....therefore she continue to pray for strength to move on ... at least some strength...

hate to feel so weaken but yet she can't help it. the depth of her fall is deeper than she thought....

Not gone, just hiding...

2011-06-27T18:23:00.006+08:00

Sorry I've been away for about more than 2 months that feels like a whole 2 years to me...

there were the ups and downs... which have partially made me insane... (literally speaking....)

well.....for the first 5 minutes, for many, many days that i've been trying to type out a post... I am always stuck here. Lost at words.

The many, many days has gone and I realize it has been more than 60 days ago since the first time I tried to write something here which end up with nothing....and I just could not find myself transferring my thoughts to the keyboard....

So many words, so many occasions, so many memories, so many thoughts, so many sorrows, so many stories, so many happy moments...that I wanted to share...yet decide that I don't feel like it...i just didn't know where to start or wonder is it relevant anymore to share....

so forgive me for being selfish, for not being able to blog, for not being able to be the old self I was - cheerful, always positive, always looking forward to things. I realize a certain things that happen to me had changed me and it has somehow suck away my confidence in life.

I continue to pretend and act as if I've overcome all the obstacles. I act as if I am no longer in suffocation. Well, please just pretend along with me that I am ok. For I will feel better when my weakness is not being spotted.

Don't worry. I am ok. I just need time to rediscover myself. I've fall too deep (deeper than I thought it was), and climbing up needs lots of strength and time. So please bare with me and show me some support maybe - by pretending i am ok??? by not asking what happen??

Eileen will be back... promise...

ps: please forgive me for another emotional post.

Meet my son...

2011-04-06T19:33:00.004+08:00

Welcome and please meet my son Peng Xin from Pingquan, China.

And today, he's turning 7!! Happy Birthday Boy!!

(gonna go shop for small gifts to send to him later - I am seriously not really a good mum)

Ok, to explain, he isn't exactly my biological son. He's the child I am sponsoring through World Vision. I applied to sponsor a girl, but World Vision paired me up with Peng Xin. Not sure is this an error on my application but then its no longer important as i believe it is just fate. He's an Arien (both my mum and bro are Ariens too) which is a compatible sign with Leo (me). So everything is GOOD! :D

Some might ask and question why on earth would I fork out RM50 a month? I barely have enough to spend for myself so shouldn't I just keep the money for my own rainy days? and how much can you help with the RM50 a month? Can't even feed him a week....But what other things can I do with the RM50? 4 cups of Starbucks? 2 days' meal and its all gone! So why don't I just use it to sponsor a child?

You see, the money that I am donating every month don't directly go to Peng Xin or his family. But instead, it is pooled together with other sponsors and these money will then be used to build infrastructure to help improve health, education and economy at Peng Xin's village on a long term plan. It is to help improve a community, not just one person's life.

I believe I myself can't change the world. But I know, I can change someone's life. And for that, I've decided to sponsor a child. At least Peng Xin know there's someone out there from another country who cares about him and hopefully this will give him the motivation to strive to study hard for his better future. I've always been bless with a good set of parents and education opportunities and now that I am earning my own money, I would like to be able to help and give back to the community.

So, if you feel what I've said make sense, like this post and go to www.worldvision.com.my and get yourself a sponsor child!

Good week ahead! I am now leaving the office to go grab my first dinner in 2 days!

"I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do" - Edward Everett Hale

Decides to stay in...

2011-04-02T12:26:00.001+08:00

Horoscope says,

2011-03-26T12:08:00.007+08:00

Randomly, I checked out my horoscope today. It says,

"The position of the heavenly bodies indicates that a face from the past could be a real catalyst. You need this to make you realize that you should get moving on a certain issue. Perhaps your relationship showed you something about yourself that you have not yet resolved. You see with clarity that it is time to take action, in order to be able to move on"

Sometimes just can't deny the fact that horoscope can be so damn accurate. I love my life at the moment. My job has kept me busy and that means keeping my brain and mind occupied with things. LOTS of things. But then as it says, there's still the past issues and actions have to be made in order to move on.

Won't deny the fact that the memories still linger, but who said it was easy when it comes to completely erasing emotional feelings (might be easy for some, but it ain't for me) - but let just say, I am now in a much better position than I was few weeks ago. Time will heal but deep down, I won't be able to forget and I DON'T want to forget - for at least I've tasted something sweet and bitter out of it.

I don't want to forget but I am ready to move on! So throw me with whatever challenges there are out there...I am ready, all geared up and ready to roar and fight like a lion - afterall I am a Leo! A Leo can be defeated & injured, but a Leo will stand back up once again - more ready than before for a new challenge!

Pray for Japan

2011-03-14T18:43:00.006+08:00

So everyone heard of the latest earthquake that hit Japan... (if you have not, please stop reading my blog and go over to CNN.com)

and there's the 70% possibility that another quake might strike in the next 2 - 3 days...

and everyone's talking about 2012...the end of the world...

Life is indeed fragile - isn't it?

One day, we just go to bed on the usual serene and peaceful night and the next day, we find ourselves waking up by the trembles of the earth and swept away by the giant waves... leaving all our loving ones behind....

Have you told them how much you've love them and what they meant to you?

Have you apologize to the ones you've hurt before?

Have you repay all the invisible debts (gratitude) you've vowed to repay back?

those are the primary issues... what about the secondary ones?

Have you reach your goals in life, the career and the ambition you wanted?

then I ask myself again, is this secondary question important anymore?

can my goals and ambition bring me back to my love ones?

no they can't ... but at least if I've achieved one of my goals in life and if I were to leave this world behind, I will be glad - at least I've done something... it's like a sort of accomplishment..contentment...

So before my last day, this is my wish for now - I am praying now for everyone's safety, to all people who are affected by the terrible quake and I pray for Japan to recover, innocent lives to be sparred and may there be NO second quake.

I believe, the sun will rise and shine once again! Stay strong Japan! You are in my prayers

ps: Readers, please help pray for everyone's peace and safety! Please pray for Japan!

she's healing

2011-03-05T13:49:00.010+08:00

it has been 6 months.

33days since ... the last conversation

So have she found the broken pisces and fix them back to where they belong?

Well. Maybe.......hope so... a little more time...perhaps?

The Little Mermaid

2011-02-11T20:45:00.001+08:00

like in the Secret Garden,

I'll be the little mermaid, watching her prince from a far and silently disappear when the time comes...

Reflection and Resolution

2011-02-11T02:09:00.004+08:00

Reflection

Clearly in 2010, I did not blog as much as I should be compare to previous years.

But overall 2010 has been a very educational, inspiring and challenging year for me. I've learnt quite a lot, they were filled with ups and the downs and it was also the year that I am supporting myself with my hard earn money...

Here's a recap:

Jan 2010: I was quite stress over some issues (if you've read my blog, you'll know).

Feb 2010: started my final semester of my second degree. Met someone whom I've respected and I thought I could trust... but I guess I was wrong...

March 2010: started working on my final degree project

April 2010: Had a mock-up interview with a respectful industry guest (graphic students was jealous of the opportunity :P)

May 2010: Welcome sister-in-law to the family! (note: a new member is joining the family soon!! YAY i can't wait *excited*)

June 2010: Getting all nervous and starting to lose motivation as the final project presentation day drew closer and closer and when I was done with it, it was a HUGE relief! phew! I SURVIVED!

the opening scene of my final year project

July 2010: mark the closing of my life as a student! Finally graduated with a second degree!

August 2010: Started to look for job and by mid of August, I started a job at a production company - a place I never imagine myself at... I AM IN ENTERTAINMENT business man!

September 2010: moved to a new house, a new location, a new place and start to pay everything with my own hard earn money...(sucks)

October 2010: had the opportunity to travel to Kelantan & Johor, touring with the production crew for the first time! and I got myself emotionally injured again.... (one of the many reasons that kept me away from blogging....i was just too emo)

November 2010: worst month of the year - a healing month for me! (still an on-going phase. i did not know how i got myself into this mess, but i know...whatever happened, happens for a reason)

December 2010: spent my first christmas and new year eve here in KL! had one of the best new year eve ever, chilling and partying with a new group of friends. GReATZZ!

Resolutions

Okay I know I am late to post this up but well.... who cares. I am just one of a kind ain't i? So here's the list: -

1. Love myself and my family more

2. Sponsor a child - if i manage to get a better job with a higher salary

3. Join a marathon - at least 10km (that includes regular training, jogging and diet)

4. Go on a holiday trip (beach. sun. sea)

5. Do what I love to do best - (eg: eating, extreme/adventurous stuff (bungee jump is one), paintballing, sketching/drawing/designing stuff...)

6. Be more forgiving towards others

7. Get myself a pet (if possible)

8. Party hard

9. Save some money

10. Get a house (this is still too early and ambitious, but no harm putting them to my list right?) :P

So that's my top 10 resolutions! maybe i should add another one "Blog more often" ahahaha

I am on a comeback mission - are you still with me?

see you around!

The Great Pretender ...

2010-12-06T17:44:00.004+08:00

I am tired of pretending that nothing happen.

I am tired of acting as if I don't care.

I am tired of lying to myself that I've ran a distance and left everything behind.

I am tired .... just plain tired.

The conscious mind is optimistic for a move on and thinks that she deserves better, but yet the aching heart - is still reluctant to take any step forward ...

just when i am feeling fugly...

2010-12-03T16:41:00.006+08:00

Walked around the mall together with 2 pretty colleagues (one of them is a celebrity). And since I was wearing a pair of flat-flats today with VERY casual clothing, I felt unattractive and un-sexy standing beside them both. Furthermore, my hair is in a mess - I left my hair styling cream in Penang so I have not been styling my hair for a week already. and being a cheapskate and being in a terrible financial constraint now, decided to not buy the cream and endure a few more days till I go back Penang.....

So while walking, I just made myself busy replying mails from my phone (a new phone which i have not blog yet) and suddenly one of my colleague turned to me and said,

M: That guy pusing 2 kali (that guy turn twice)

E: ahahha. to tengok you lah (checking you out) *still busy replying mail on the phone*

M: No-lah. He tengok you lar (No! He was looking at you)

E: Betulkah? (Really?)

M: Yalah (YES!)

E: mana satu? (which one?)

M: itu... (that ....) *fingers point to someone ... which I have no idea which guy..)

E: Handsomekah? (Is he handsome?)

M: HANDSOME!

E: aiyah.... tak nampak (wasted... I didn't get to see his face)

LMAO! Guys checking me out when I feel absolutely lousy and ugly? LOL

Sorry everyone for being away for a while...working life had kept me away from all my personal-work-time... :(

Let's hope the next blog won't be too far away from here.....

My First Visit to Sri Pentas

2010-11-02T16:14:00.012+08:00

Called my colleague,

Me: Hie C, I am at Sri Pentas, where should I park my car?

C: Park at the hotel basement... (sounded like he just woke up)

Me: ok. Thank you very much. (close down the phone)

LOL! yes that's the FREAKY me. I am just paranoid when I am driving in KL because if I ever make a stupid turn or miss one, I'll have to make a BIG round. So... I'll call for help even for such small matter like the above ... :P

Anyway, I decided to go against the odds today and test my lady luck to avoid parking at the hotel because it is quite expensive you see....

So here's the conversation I had with the security guard and the police officer for a free car park

Me: Hi, I am here for an interview with NTV7

Security Guard (SG): Oh, you are here for the Breakfast Show?

Me: (in my mind: How I wish I am here for the Breakfast Show so I get to meet Hansen Lee UP CLOSE *drools*)

Me: Oh no. I am here for meeting with the channel.

SG: Which channel?

Me: NTV7

SG: So you are here as a guest for Breakfast Show?

Me: (*still wishing I am, so I get to meet Hansen Lee*) No, no, no. I am here for a meeting with the NTV7 management...

SG: Ok, please give your ID to this officer to collect your pass

Me: Hi Kak, I need a pass (Kak is a way to address malay woman who are older than me), here's my ID.

Officer (O): Where are you going?

Me: Not sure where, but I have a meeting with NTV7 management...

O: Oh. Here for the breakfast show?

Me: Tak (no). I am here for a meeting

O: So are you here for the Breakfast Show as guest?

Me: No. Just meeting with the management and channel manager ...

O: Where?

Me: At NTV7 office...

O: Are you sure you are not here for the Breakfast Show?

Me: (look at myself, my clothes ... did i overdress for the meeting or what? the last time i check the mirror before I leave the rented apartment, I did not. Do I look like I am here as a guest on national TV? Or was it my new hair colour and fringe that makes me looks like a diva? (self praise. ahahahha :P)

Me: No not for breakfast show. I am here for a meeting with the management.

O: Ok. Give me your ID...

Me: (hands over my ID) Kak, where can I park my car?

O: Here (points to the space in front of the building)

Me: okay.... (that's a very good space). Thanks!

LMAO!

My little makeover that I've had over the weekend seems to be working eh... :P (although the golden brown dye did not turn out as "golden" as I expect it to be *sadness* )

ANYWAY, October has been quite a month for me - filled with ups and downs, experienced new things, was pretty busy at work, did some stupid mistakes, shed some tears and sort of got my heart wounded but I am very pretty sure with my new golden brown hair, November is going to be an awesome month for me! (fingers crossed) ... wish me luck 'aite! :D

A Narrow Escape?

2010-10-24T14:02:00.006+08:00

Life is so fragile. Life can be short.

So why not live life to the fullest and live each day as it is the last?

For the past 3 weeks, I've been on working trip to the east (Kuantan) and south (JB) of Peninsular Malaysia and then at Shah Alam - auditioning kids for a singing competition programme called "Kamilah Bintang" that my company is producing for ASTRO Ceria, Channel 611 which will start transmission on 12th November. Watch it! (NO you will not see me there or maybe you will if you look long and hard! ahahha :P)

First stop - Kuantan

with half of the production crew at JB

okay - here are 3/4 of the production crew

an almost-complete-production team picture

It has been a great 3-weeks-experience, working and witnessing the behind the scene of a programme which is similar to "idol", meeting and talking to various types of people from all walks to life (still learning my social communication skills - which I'm still lacking on), brushing up my oral skill - speaking in Bahasa Malaysia (national language - which i hardly converse in after i graduated from high school), and traveling to parts of Malaysia that I have not had a chance to visit before this. It was an incredible experience I would say.

Anyway, on my second trip, on my way back from Johor, my friends and I were very, very close to be involved in the tragic accident of a bus that went out of control, crashed onto the divider and hit an oncoming bus and overturned on top of a small vehicle which killed 12 lives and left 40 over other people injured. HORRIFIC accident!

I was not at the location, very near but still it left us questioning to ourselves how ironic life can be at times. 15mins before the accident, my friend (the driver) honked the bus because he was trying to cut into our lane and my friend was going pretty fast. Right after the horn, my friend then decide that he wants to take an un-plan stop at a nearby petrol station (our initial plan was to stop at the next stop for dinner, but due to some reasons, my friend wanted to stop). So we stopped and my another sick friend in the car wanted to stop to vomit. So we stop longer than expected. So for that unexpected stop, our lives were spare that evening. Okay, I might be exaggerating - but I am sure you know what I mean. If we were to drive on and if we did not take the stop, we would probably be behind or in front of the bus and we would probably have been one of those unfortunate souls whose lives were robbed away from their love ones.

Working life has been a good challenge for me. As for my own personal life, it has not been that great. I am going through some emotional roller coaster and it has been giving me lots of sleepless nights of lately - for almost 2 weeks. I guess I need a little more time to get things around - it is harder this time, but I hope I can manage it.

New Beginning of an Ending

2010-09-19T21:15:00.004+08:00

Dear Journey So Far blog readers,

I am sorry that I've not updated my blog as frequent as I can. A lot of things has been going on for the past 2 months since my final project presentation and I owe you all a proper update. For the past month, there were just so many occasions when I were stuck in the crazy traffic jam where I had so many stories that I wanted to blog about and share it here. I know somehow, the supposed post(s) were not written and publish - all were plan but not put to action. So sorry - I was very, very busy looking for a new place and moving out, adapting new job, new circle of friends and beginning a my new chapter of my life which has been pretty exciting so far. So be prepared for a long post....

On Graduation

Just like everyone would say it, "In just a blink of an eye...."

YES! The picture says it all, ain't it? After 7 years in college and university, I am now officially a double degree holder!

On Work

Many of you who know me personally would have probably know that I've always wanted to work in an advertising/design agency. It has always been my goal to get into one and working at post production is my second choice (although I sometimes have doubts over my own skills) and being in a production company has NEVER cross my mind before. As ironic as it may sound, and how life can turns out to be so unexpected at times, I am now working in a production company. And this company is not just any ordinary production company. This company partially belongs to one of the world's leading entertainment production company that produces one of my favourite reality tv series of all times - FEAR FACTOR!

What am I working as? I am the Researcher/office girl/Bao Sua Bao Hai (translate: cover mountain, cover sea - in Chinese Hokkien dialect, it means doing various types of job). Don't get me wrong, I am NOT RANTING! I do like my current job. This job requires me to learn and venture into many new things and Eileen loves challenges and adore learning new things very, very much! So yes! I do like my job at the moment!

Anyway, I've been involve in quite a few projects at the moment. Everything seems pretty exciting. Wondering what are those projects are? Well, stay tune! When the time is right, and the project goes public, I'll update you guys on my work and you can tune into the respective channels and enjoy :D

A note to self: Enjoy LIFE!

Moving on

I've recently just moved out of the quiet, traffic-jam-less, jungle-ish Cyberjaya (the place I've stayed for the past 3 years) to the bustling and heavy traffic part of the city - Petaling Jaya. The place I am currently at is not too bad, very homey. On the first 2 nights, I barely had any proper sleep. The sound of the traffic from the nearby highway is quite noisy to me but now, it's almost non-existence especially when I am really, really tired after work.

The view from my chambers. Not perfect but just a view for u

My weekends in this new place has been pretty dull on the first week. At times, it is quiet lonely since most of my friends are not around. Most of my coursemates have gone back to their home country and some had went on holiday trips. But this week, I've called up some friends make a few appointments so it isn't really that bad. So anyone wanna date me? I am mostly free on weekends! ahahhaha :D

Horoscope Reading

The Horoscope today says, "You've spent a good part of the past couple days staring intently into the mirror, wondering if there might not be something tattooed on your forehead that's visible only to jerks, users and losers. For some reason, individuals of that type seem to be gravitating toward you, with sad stories, pleas for redemption and promises to do better next time -- even if you've never set eyes on them before. Relax. It's just your turn -- we all get one. Practice just saying 'no' and walk away."

Well, some parts of it is true - I've met a fair share of jerks and losers and I guess its time for a change! Let's get BI*CHY!

I guess I have to stop now and go to bed. My life's pretty hectic of lately and the coming few days will be even busier than usual. So Sayonara for now and till I update again on my next post - hopefully soon!

Beginning of a New Chapter

2010-08-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

A short post.

My boss found my blog and he say i should probably mention in my blog and shout out to the world that I got the job!

So here it is Boss! :D

Felix- The Adopted Cat

2010-07-12T17:34:00.005+08:00

Felix is the cat that one of my housemate adopted from the streets. For the past few weeks, he have been coming in and out of the house and we've sort of got used to him being in the house... FYI, I hate cats. I still do (i think). I am a dog person but somehow I just got used to having Felix around.

Currently he's undergoing a surgery to safe his eyesight and eyeball. hopefully Felix will do well and the vet do some miracle and magic and safe this few months old cat from the harsh world out there when all of us move out of this neighbourhood.

new toy?

2010-06-27T01:00:00.001+08:00

it is white! white! and all white!!!

**coming soon**

I Survived?

2010-06-09T01:10:00.003+08:00

No. Not officially yet since my lecturer just gave me an additional week to improve it.

Just feel so relief now that the presentation is over. Some burdens that I've been feeling for the last couple of months had just been loaded off. The sleepless nights. The boring weekends spend stuck in the room vectoring and animating. The fear that lecturers won't like my work...

But now its over :D receive some good comments so I AM HAPPY and RELIEF!

And today, I found out that my lecturer(s) actually read my blog. So if you are reading this, HI Miss! Hi Sir!

Okay, i am going off for an early night tonight as I have to wake up in 6 hours for my morning class later. See you soon....

Showreel 2010

2010-06-04T06:25:00.004+08:00

Here's the first version of my showreel (one of my professional studies assignment). Will be updating another version soon since this current one is without my final project...

Anyway, do feel free to drop me a line or two of your thoughts and comment about this showreel so I can improve on my next version. :D

Do or Die

2010-06-03T18:05:00.004+08:00

My last hard working weekend as a student! I am going on a 48 hours to 72 hours of no sleep mission. It's DO or DIE! I have no choice! Let's hope I survive and when I do, you will be the first to know, because I AM DAMN sure I am gonna blog about it. As for now.... the no-sleep mission has just begun.....

*yawn* (FYI, i've not had a good sleep since a few weeks ago..i've forgot what it is like to sleep 7 hours a day.....)

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!

and this is the 6 of the 8 bottles of chicken essence mom insist me to bring back with me for this final week!

Congratulations BRO!!

2010-05-30T14:43:00.003+08:00

Welcoming Hsiao Wye into the family !!!

Bro and Ah Soh, please multiply and add more new members (cute babies) to the family soon!

Hello Mr Tumour

2010-05-24T05:01:00.006+08:00

14 days to death row...... (probably my death row)

one of my characters for my motion graphic animation

At the Brink of Losing It All

2010-05-21T05:01:00.002+08:00

Week 12 is coming to an end. I am on the brink of losing all of it already - the passion and motivation to complete my work ..... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Healthy Substitute

2010-05-17T13:31:00.007+08:00

Now this is indeed the perfect healthy substitute to my recent Ramly burger addiction

www.jimpancakes.com (Got this link via my lecturer's twit :P)

anyone wanna cook them for me? pamper me at least?

A Good Laugh

2010-05-11T09:24:00.002+08:00

did you have a good laugh over the weekend?

I did not. I was practically emo-ing through the whole 2 days.

But last night, I was working on one of the character for my final project when I notice something humourous I did. It really made me LOL and then I feel, all my stress taken away.... (a little) :D

Didn't they say, "Laughter is the best medicine"? Hope this is a great start to a new week for everyone!

Let's keep the positive spirit and hope I don't stress myself out *fingers crossed*

It is gonna be a great weekend

2010-05-08T13:20:00.005+08:00

Woke up, switch on my computer, click on Facebook.com

and I saw this picture ........

Image taken from Switch's Facebook fan page

Someone was spotted carrying a Switch's recycle shopping bag at Starbucks this morning. What a great motivation to start the weekend stuck in my room working on my project :D (FYI, I designed that bag)

Hope every one have a great weekend and Happy Mothers' Day!

MUMMY, I LOVE YOU !!!

According to Horoscope

2010-05-06T21:15:00.002+08:00

I am not really a vivid horoscope believer, but somehow I love reading them simply because I am just curious......

So it is May now. According to my horoscope, this month supposed to be the "ROMANCE" month. ahahahah

SERIOUSLY??

Romance with my final project?

Yea righttttttttttt.................

Caught in the act

2010-05-03T19:38:00.002+08:00

That's me, caught in the act of being paranoid ....

'nuf said

STRESSSSSSFULLLL DAYS ahead!

1st Stressful Post

2010-05-01T01:20:00.004+08:00

One of my final project requirement was to consult my supervisor on a weekly basis - or as frequent as I need - to update him on the status of my project. So, this week, I have nothing to show him (since i have not much of work or progression since my last consultation with him and since I was busy with some other stuff during the semester break). But since I was at uni yesterday, I might as well just update him on my project status .... and below is the "some what" summary of the conversation...

Me: Sir, I am not here for consultation. I just wanna let you know and that I will consult you next week.

Sir: Well, I am not too worried - i bet you have done something....

Me: Sir, actually I have not done anything since the last presentation ....

Sir: Seriously?

Me: ....*look down and nod my head* (avoid eye contact because I am seriously guilty)

Sir: You only have like what ... 5 weeks left. Well, this is your career at stake. Not mine.

Me: .... (extremely guilty and pressured)

Those words couldn't have come at better time. I actually thank him for those words are like a wake up call. Seriously I am stressing out right now to be honest. REAAAALLLLY stress to the maximum on the stress scale. I am feeling the pressure as i am running out of time. Family has been asking if i am going back next week to try out my gown which I've send for alteration. Seriously i wanted to, but I don't think i can...I do not have the time to spare on traveling.... not to mention how tired i will be from the respective 5 hours bus rides back and forth...

and.... I am starting to doubt myself and my ability. Maybe I am just not made for all this... seriously dumb and useless. I know this is not the time to think about all this negative thoughts but instead I should think positively and work harder - or simply just work my ass off ....

Furthermore, Graduation Show preparation is taking its toll on me (FYI, I am one of the organizing committee member). After speaking to someone with event planning experience, I am doubting about the whole production and the preparation and there's just so many things to do in sooo little time...

HELPPPPPPPPP

Onitsuka Tiger or Converse?

2010-04-23T22:28:00.005+08:00

which one is nicer and better?

this stylish onitsuka ? (around less than RM200)

custom made PRODUCT (RED) converse with red stitches and green for inner colour? (RM200+) or

PRODUCT (RED) converse with green stitches and red inside with my ID on it? (RM200+)

Starbucks & Me

2010-04-16T12:25:00.003+08:00

Loving my the-one-and-only Starbuck tumbler more each passing day :D

Penang and food, wait up!! Eileen's coming!

Lay's Heaven

2010-04-15T00:51:00.001+08:00

a HUUUUUGE packet of drugs to take all the blues and stress away!!

Feeling Lucky

2010-04-11T16:07:00.003+08:00

I felt so lucky as if I've just strike a lottery!

Last Friday I was late for my 11am entrepreneurshit (oops! its entrepreneurship) class. But despite that when I reach the campus it is already 11.15am, I did not care and decide to screw the class and went to cash out money from the ATM instead to pay my monthly utility bills.

My uni now have 2 units of ATM machine compare to the time when I first came to the uni, there's only one miserable machine cater to thousands of students. So imagine the queue everyday.... But that morning, there wasn't much difference as one machine was not functioning well cos there's a window error message appearing on the screen. So everyone was queuing up at one machine while leave the error-message machine unattended. Then one girl decide to go there to try her luck and when I saw her successfully manage to cash out money, I switched lane and went to the error-message machine.

And guess what, the money that came out from the machine is actually worth more than the amount I cash out from the account!!!

Yes! I AM SERIOUS! NO JOKE!

Well you see, the RM50 notes that came out from the machine is actually the limited edition notes which value more than RM50. I check online and some websites are even auctioning it out at RM100 and RM200 for each note and some blog say it is value at RM75 each if you bring it back to the bank to change.

Spot the difference?

There's a 50 years Independence Day logo at the top right corner. Rm50 bank note with this logo is supposed to worth more than its value stated as there's only a few thousands copies printed. It has now become a collectors' item.

Ain't I lucky? I really feel I've just strike a consolation prize lottery :D So next time when you cash out money, do check it before you spend, you might never know when is your lucky day :D

Dinner

2010-04-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

That's my dinner tonight.....

half-box of layer cake and a huge cup of natural low fat yogurt

handsome-ness!!

2010-04-04T16:38:00.004+08:00

Saw this handsome over at Juice KL's facebook wall pictures. I am sooo in love with it. I know... probably you might have think I am going nuts in love with this guy-ish sneakers right? but well, no one say a girl can't like or wear a guy's pair of shoes. :P

Most importantly its the combination of JackPurcell + Product(Red)+ CLOT! I'm sooooooooo tempted to get this pair man which I think will probably cost me a fortune! :(

Let's hope Edison Chen drop by my humble blog by chance, read this and decide to give me a discount :D ahahahha

Happy Easter everyone!!

My First Interview

2010-04-01T12:26:00.005+08:00

Okay... it is not my first work interview but definitely my first work interview for this year and my second interview in this creative industry. This interview is actually part of my class assignment where we will be assessed by the industry guest as well as the lecturer.

I was really nervously-excited over this golden opportunity to be interview by one of the most prestigious agency in this country and not to mention the interviewer happens to be someone who is well respected and super duper experience. So because I was nervous and excited at the same time, I didn't really sleep well the night before so yea...I guess I sort of screw up a bit here and there during the interview.

She asked me questions which I was not prepared for ... and for all the questions that I've prepared and ready for, was not even asked. So imagine ... eileen on her not-enough-sleep state talking.... you will know if you can picture it...My brain wasn't functioning at the speed it is supposed to be and worst of all, I forgot to give her my name card which I spend nearly an hour at the print shop just to get the printing alignment right (not to mention the amount of money there) and I also forgot the common manners of shaking her hands after the interview. sigh :( So yea..I really have no idea how well I did in the interview. Now that I think back, I think I could have done much better.... but well lets hope she keeps me in view.

But at least she likes my CV and some of my designs from my portfolio. Maybe I should take comfort in that and strive to be better in my next interview. Hopefully there will be other new opportunities coming knocking on my door soon ...... *fingers crossed*

the front cover of my CV

the content design layout for my CV

My Lamborghino

2010-03-29T22:09:00.005+08:00

After 4-5 days of intense vectoring, finally i've completed the design for the competition......

Front side view

Back side view

Front view

Back view

Top view

I kinda feel i've gayified the car but well....almost 5 days of hardwork there and not to mention the sleepless nights....

My last tin of happiness from home

2010-03-22T17:36:00.005+08:00

My last tin of happiness from home for this semester .....

They are definitely my most favourite Chinese New Year delicacy. Now I'll have to wait till next year to enjoy them again :(

Where have I been?

2010-03-18T11:11:00.001+08:00

I went missing. Yes. I went missing for a while didn't I? Very sorry to those of you who have miss me and my blogs.

So updates?

I am actually lost at words of what to blog about as there have been so many things happening lately. Everything is just happening so fast...one minute I was emo-ing right before Chinese New Year and the next, I am back in Cyberjaya after 3 months of holiday and currently on my 3rd week of the semester already. Sigh. Time flies.

I am now on my last semester of my second degree which means it is now my 4th year staying in KL. It is really mysterious how fast time flies. Anyway, do expect more emo post from me in the next 3 months ok? I know I will be all stress up by next month and when it comes to May ... I guess I will be at the brink of dying from stress and pressure and endless sleepless nights because of my final project and not to mention the BIG occasion my family will be having this coming end of May! Will keep you posted by May :D

Lots of things to post and update you. First and foremost the most recent one,

I GOT MYSELF A CARTILAGE PIERCING!!

this is definitely not the piercing I plan to get (I have still yet to get the piercing i've always wanted yet). I got it 'cos it was a dare to a friend. hehe

hair is still almost the same style and length (maybe a little longer) ....

got a new natural double eyelid that makes my eyes looks retarded now :(

the eye on the right is the one with the new double eyelid. a new line appear on top of the older line (which vanished away) and now it makes my eye looks smaller on one side

tried baseball batting for the first time with my classmates at 1Utama

So yea.. basically that are the updates i have for now.

When New Year Doesn't Feel Like It

2010-02-11T13:50:00.004+08:00

For the pass 3 months, I've been in and out of this hospital. When it was christmas, they have the Christmas decorations on, when it was near Chinese New Year, of course they have the decorations on too.

But somehow, being at the hospital itself doesn't give me the feeling of celebration nor the joy of the season. It aches my heart to see patients after patients on their respective bed with drips connected to their veins through a needle... and I wonder what if I am in their place, will I be able to endure the pain through all the constant needle pricks? Will I ever have the courage to look at myself in the mirror when I am bald?

Someone asked me why have I look so haggard lately. I have no idea how do I answer them. Indeed, I am very tired of everything. From dealing with housework to working freelance on some project to get a side income for me to spend during my last semester which will be starting soon in just less than 20 days time and to helping out my aunt with the baking and to some house chores. Then my family made a remark recently that I don't pay attention to them when they are talking to me. It is not that I don't want to, it is because my brain is constantly thinking and working that I can't help it at times it just switches to something else or it just switches off and I have no idea what's going on. It is like I am tune to another FM wave all of a sudden without me knowing it - in short, I am really exhausted - mentally and physically. I feel like I am slowing burying myself in a mining land full of dynamites...

I know 2010 is going to be great, but will I get through it feeling fabulous and joy?

I will if I constantly believe I will. So I know I will - 2010 is going to be fabulous! (pardon me, i have to always remind myself about this) After all, I am an OX. Oxen works hard and will endure all hardship coming his/her way!

Luck and Blessing Needed

2010-02-05T02:50:00.002+08:00

I've just recently accepted a quite a long term freelance projects and seriously need your help in praying and blessing me with lots of luck, endurance, patience and creativity.

It is gonna be really taxing (energy and sleep wise and creativity) as i am also working on my final degree project.....

So wish me luck, health and whatever that I will need. Bless Me!

Thaipusam 2010

2010-02-03T03:19:00.010+08:00

*Warning. Some pictures might be disturbing to some *

My second year visit to Penang's Thaipusam celebration

The above 3 pictures was taken while I was stuck in the traffic jam while on my way to the printer's shop to collect something on my client's behalf. Definitely a good day for me as I get to take some shoots despite being stuck in a jam and thank God, I have my slr is with me :D

I am still thinking should i submit my pictures for competition as I still think my previous year pictures are much much more nicer than this year's. What do you think? As for my last year's pictures, click here

In Loving Memories : Aizati Aziz

2010-01-25T12:51:00.011+08:00

I stared long and hard at my screen - my desktop.

I couldn't believe what I've just read.

I re-read the whole twit message, again and again...

Then slowly it sunk in that my favourite, coolest, spunkiest, loving, caring, and humble lecturer have left us... forever....

The lady in the middle is our dear Ms Aizati Aziz. She's petite in size, but don't be fooled by that - she's BIG at heart, a rocker and she rides a Ducati. coolness right? She's the lecturer that love by most, hate by none in my class.

It was sad enough (for me) when she message a few of us over facebook last week that she's no longer teaching us next semester and her last words to us were "Rock the world with your talent". My friend and I were even planning to have a farewell dinner/party together for her before the next semester begins. But now, she's gone, forever, to return to her creator. How ironic life can be at times.

She had taught me so much and encourage me to be the person I want to be. She had dared me to dream and go to places I've never thought I could. She continue to give me hope and strength whenever I feel down with my work. She would spend her time to teach me the little things. She never stop injecting her creativity into all of us. She was never selfish in sharing. She was the most humble, kind and down to earth person I've ever met.

I remember the day I attended a conference with her at KLCC, we talked over meals, shared so many small talks and opinions. I shared with her so many little dreams of mine where she encouraged me and turn those small dreams into bigger dreams - goals in life. She snapped a picture of me with her handphone and told me that she loves taking pics of her students so she could keep them for memories. All these memories seems like it was just yesterday....

I will always remember her for all the fun we had together at KL. The crazy things we did at National Art Gallery such as

stepping on names....

posing playfully with the boys from the class

and cam whoring with the girls for 2 days....

Thank you Ms Aizati for all the "Eureka" thoughts that you've shared with us. Thank you for being our lecturer for the past 3 semester (how I wish you will be here with us till we graduate). Thank you for all the encouragement you gave us. Thank you for always being so nice and understanding. Thank you for the knowledge. Thank you for your wisdom and creativity. Thank you for taking us out on trips and make our learning experience worthwhile and filled with fun. Thank you for inspiring us in so many different ways. Thank you for being just more than a lecturer to us.

Last but not least, thank you for all the memories. May you rest in peace Ms Aizati. You will forever be remembered and deeply miss by everyone from BACM5A 2009. (soon to be Class of July 2010)

My deepest condolence goes to Mr Luqman and family.

Her Shots

2010-01-20T23:13:00.006+08:00

As promise from my previous post, these are the pictures from my photo session with Acero from Philippine who were here in Penang with her band.

Photo 1: This is one of my favourite shot of the day

Photo 2: Love the guy's tattoo!!!

Photo 3: I always love water splash

Photo 4: another splash?

Photo 5

Photo 6

For more pictures, visit my flickr page

(Photo taken by ShinYi)

and this is the picture taken together with her when I went to watch her band perform their last performance at Slippery Senoritas. The band was superbly AWESOME!!

Why add salt to a wound?

2010-01-13T00:26:00.001+08:00

I always hated people who give me negative vibes -THE people who rub salt to your wounds, THE people who sucks faith out of you, THE people who add more miseries and dilemma to problems that you are currently facing, and THE people that makes you feel like a B*TCH.

I was at "St Louis" last night. No it is not the Unites States's St Louis, it is the name of the room I was overnighting at. No again if you are guessing it is luxurious hotel room's name or any other holiday-ish room name thingy. Well, it is not. The buildings starts with a H, but it is definitely not "hotel".

Anyway, I was at St Louis last night till late afternoon today. A lady in her 50s-60s waltz into St Louis (the room I was at) this morning and start talking to me in Indonesian language. I guess most Malaysian would probably have problem comprehend her speedy speech, but after 3 years of hanging out with Indonesian friends, I do get what she's telling me. I sympathized on what she was going through. I do seriously. I understand her misery. I understand the trauma she and her family are going through. The hardship they are enduring. She was so stressed out from worries about her husband that I feel for her and I want to be her ear, listen to all her worries and dilemma she's going through. I do really wish by hearing her, I could really help her to ease her out of stress but when she start rubbing her misery to another patient and starts to give her negative thoughts that the sickness will not heal, but get worst and death is just around the corner once diagnose with the sickness, I feel like so screaming out loud at her and say "GET A LIFE LADY! SHUT UP AND GET LOST!" (She made me feel b*tchy here).

I understand the lady need to rant out all her miseries, stress and sadness to someone to make her feel better, but don't you think it is a little selfish of her to rant it out to other patients and telling them that they are at the brink of dying with just 1 year to 5 years at most to live? I don't mind her talking to me, but why share those negative thoughts with people who are suffering and have faith of recovering from the sickness?

I learn from a tv series, that life is not always perfect. It hardly can be 100% perfect. So if you get 80% of a perfect life, then it is good enough. Besides, for the pass few months, I've learn that positive thinking and a positive mind always helps you heal faster. Be it from a sickness or a heart broken. When we fall, we cry over the spilled milk. You are allow to cry, feel pitiful and bad about ourselves - your life. But we have to remember to stand up, leave the past behind and continue to run again. I always believe that life is a never ending journey if you choose to walk and run a longer distance :D

Stop thinking and spreading negative vibes! THINK POSITIVELY and look at the bright side of things! For all the bad things that happen, it can be a blessing in disguise.

Happy New Year everyone! 2010 is going to be a fabulous year to me! So hopefully it will be for you too! :D

I miss "switching" people

2009-12-23T11:46:00.009+08:00

I've been asked for the umpteenth time why I am NOT "switching" this holiday.

For the past 3 years, I've always been working part time at this work place during the semester break holiday. I guess all my friends and family are so accustom to my routine that they would assume I will be working at the same place this holiday. Ironically this holiday, I am not following the norm. I've decided to stay home, and spend more time with my family (my mom and grandma in particular).

I've always enjoy working at the place. It has become my second home every time I am back to Penang for holiday because of the amount of time I would spend there. I've made so many valuable friendships there, learned so much and discovered something I didn't know I could do 3 years ago before I join the company.

Truthfully speaking, I really, really miss working there. I miss interacting with customers from all walks of life. I miss the time helping customers "switch" easily. I miss touching and testing out all the gadgets available in the shop. I miss the early morning gathering/training session with my colleagues. I miss receiving salary which I could use to spend lavishly on myself.

But for all that I am missing right now, I know spending more time with my family is much more important and valuable that is beyond comparison to the amount of money I will be earning if I were to work instead.

So at the meantime, while spending more time at home, I am working on a few personal projects and hopefully I will be able to launch it by January 2010 (which is in a few more days).

Wish me luck! :D

A Smile For Every Moment

2009-12-18T14:11:00.003+08:00

I just realize i have not update the blog with assignments from my previous semester.

So here it is, I am gonna share with you the first project that my group members and I presented to a whole group of special guest who are prominent people from local motion graphics / advertising industry. (*Remember my previous post, 29 hours to go... where I wrote about how anxious, nervous and excited I was for my first presentation of the semester)

For this project, I've team up with under18carbon and pop to form Lucid. Teaming up with both of them is indeed a blessing. Working together on the project has been indeed fun and I really really miss pop's jokes session!

For this project, we are required to rebrand any "Buatan Malaysia" (Malaysian Products) products of our own choice. After a few meetings and discussions, the group finally decide to brand Cupcake Chic because of many reason and the potential for cupcakes to grow among local consumers. Based on our interview with the co-founder of Cupcake Chic and based on our market research on the products, 3 of us came out with a branding solution and a TVC (television commercial).

So here it is :

A Smile For Every Moment from eileen k on Vimeo.

The Penguin is mine!

2009-12-15T19:03:00.006+08:00

And the Starbucks 2009 Christmas penguin tumbler is now mine and not just a picture on my desktop ...

Thanks to my bro who caught this penguin when he was in Singapore last weekend.

Sneak Peek: Her Day at the Beach

2009-12-05T16:58:00.012+08:00

More to come ....

I've laced up, saved lives

2009-12-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

How about u?

Money-less

2009-12-02T15:16:00.009+08:00

Sigh. I am money-less this holiday since I am not planning to work :( And this is not a good news for a gadget freak like me - especially when it comes to PHOTOGRAPHY!

Photography is indeed an expensive hobby and I am currently having a photography fever with a new lomo flu.

There're just so many things the "gadget freak" wanna get.... Currently she's in between 2 lomo cameras,

Fujifilm Instax Mini 7 (White edition)

Price at: around RM280 for the white edition (limited edition).

I've always wanted a Polaroid camera and since it has been discontinued, this little white fellow here is the perfect replacement. Maintenance is quite a expensive since each film cartridge cost Rm23.50 for 10 exposures. Expensive, but it is gonna be so fun to have each precious moments captured and printed on a credit card size film!

a Nico Digi or a Minimo (both are digital lomo keychain camera)

Price: Rm300 (together with 4 filters + delivery)

Price: RM313 (including 4 wonderlens + delivery)

These 2 mini cameras are quite a hit now in both Japan and Taiwan. And I've been eyeing this for quite a while already. It is perfect because of its small size that makes it portable and best of all, there's no need of films. Just plug and transfer to the computer. But the disadvantage, there's no lcd panel for preview. It has to be transfered to the computer for viewing.

If I only I can plant a tree that grows money...........I will buy all 3 :P ahhahaha

Lace Up Save Lives

2009-12-01T14:34:00.005+08:00

Wish to help save lives and fight AIDS in Africa?

Anyone know where can I get this besides US and UK? or is there anyone from US or UK who can help me get this? ahahahha

Without Words

2009-11-24T16:02:00.009+08:00

For the last 2 days, I've been hopelessly attached to youtube and vikii, streaming and watching the current top korean drama - You're Beautiful. (Yea. I am super free now that I am living like a healthy pig - sleep before 12am and wake up around 7-8am almost everyday since last week. not to mention the cooling weather ...).

Anyway, I would like to share the song from the series. The song that i am currently in love with: Without Words by Park Shin Hye (well, the lyrics have some significant meaning to me).

(Translation taken from youtube.com)

I shouldn't have done that

I should have pretended not to know

Like I didn't see it, like I couldn't see it

I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place

I should have ran away

I should have pretended i wasn't listening

Like i didn't hear it, like i couldn't hear it

I shouldn't have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took just a breath and ran away like this

Without a word you made me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took just a breath and ran away like this,

Wondering what to say next, my lips are surprised

Because it came without a word

Why doest it hurt so much?

Why doest it hurt continuously?

Except for the fact that i cant see you anymore

And that you are not here anymore

Without a word love leaves me

Without a word love abandons me

Otherwise its the same as before

Without a word you make me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took just a breath and ran away like this

Without a word love leaves me

Without a word love abandons me

Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised

Without a word love leaves me

Without a word love abandons me

Without a word you made me know love

Without a word you gave me love

Because you took just a breath and ran away like this

Without a word love leaves me

Without a word love abandons me

Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised

Because it came without a word

I shouldn't have done that

I should have pretend not to know

Like i didn't see, like i couldn't see

I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place .....

Doing the Impossible

2009-11-14T00:25:00.002+08:00

My 5th semester is about to come to an end.. but before that there's the FINALE!

As of from now, I have less than 60hours to create a whole working website from ZERO for a client as my final assignment of this semester!!!

I am starting to feel the impossible since I am still sick since I came back from my short trip back to Penang.

Nonetheless, since I've promised my lecturer that I will definitely finish the website and present it to the client on Monday, I guess I have no choice but to pour all out till the very last energy I have.

I meant what I say and promise SO I AM DEFINITELY going to try my very best to accomplish it!

COME ON EILEEN! 60 more hours of hardwork!!!!

FIGHTING!

R u getting me a christmas present?

2009-11-11T19:04:00.001+08:00

get me this ....

this is soooo CUTE!!

Randomness at 1U

2009-11-06T13:55:00.004+08:00

sitting for 2 hours at NewYorkNewYork Deli at 1U.

Food sucks!

So can you see why the boring, sad face??

But there's one not too bad looking guy there lah. he smiled at me.. so my day couldn't had been that bad right? ahahhaha

Can't Fight This Feeling....anymore

2009-11-06T08:47:00.005+08:00

After 5 months, suddenly "it" came back haunting me and I guess the lyrics of this song describe it all....

I can't fight this feeling any longer

And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow

What started out as friendship, has grown stronger

I only wish I had the strength to let it show

And even as I wander

I'm keeping you in sight

You're a candle in the window

On a cold, dark winters night

And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I cant fight this feeling anymore

I've forgotten what I started fighting for

It's time to bring this ship into the shore

And throw away the oars

Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you

I've been running round in circles in my mind

And it always seems that I'm following you, girl

Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find

And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight

You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winters night

And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I cant fight this feeling anymore

I've forgotten what I started fighting for

It's time to bring this ship into the shore

And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore

I've forgotten what I started fighting for

And if I have to crawl upon the floor

Come crushing through your door

Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.

29 hours to go...

2009-11-02T08:41:00.009+08:00

29 hours to go to Lucid's first ever TVC (television commercial) presentation...

anxious, nervous, excited... basically it is a mix of emotions.

Anxious because this assignment is super duper IMPORTANT for this semester. If fail this assignment means fail two subjects out of four subjects.

Nervous because I am not sure who is(are) our guest judge(s) yet. We might have people from the industry coming in to judge us or we might have a whole group of lecturers from the faculty, we might not.. so... it's pretty scary....

Excited because one assignment is about to end ... and 2 more to go.... so yea... that's something worth looking forward to.

Wish us luck!!!

Btw, here's a teaser poster :D

Oral Test

2009-10-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

Today, someone told me I speak English like a chinese educated girl. *LOL!*

After 19 years of English education, no Mandarin class or speaking lesson and being labeled as English-shit and "banana" (Chinese who don't speak mandarin)- I speak Mandarin-English slang!!

FUN-TARS-TIC!

MUAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA!

I am not angry nor sad over that comment. It just made me realize that I am currently deprive from speaking good English on a daily basis. The only English oral conversation I had in 4 days over the weekends are less than a minute of conversation over the phone with the food delivery service lady. So imagine the "opportunity" i have in practicing my Ing-glish oral skill....

English was never be my favourite subject in school - not even now. To be honest, I HATE English the most when I was in high school besides Biology.

Anyway, I am not really a language person. :P I am more of a Maths and Arts person. I never master English grammar like how well I understand the mathematic equations. I can get 99% for my maths paper easily, but never for my English. So hell yea! i am cool with it. :D

Let my art and design speak for me instead of me speaking of them. :D

Time Relapse

2009-10-22T00:52:00.012+08:00

@8am:

Q: I am brushing my teeth. But am I brushing my teeth because I just woke up? or I am brushing my teeth because I am going to bed?

A: I am just preparing to go to bed.

@3pm:

Q: I am eating. Am I having my lunch or dinner or was it breakfast?

A: If first meal of the day after I wake up is breakfast, then breakfast it is. If not, it is actually my breakfast + lunch + dinner. Seriously? Yes! At the moment, I have only one heavy meal a day. I am NOT on diet. In fact, I am trying to put on weight... but the food here sucks and not to mention the condition of the refrigerator in my house....

@12am:

Q: Time to sleep. Is it my sleeping time or is it working time?

12 am is working time. In fact, I am most productive after 12am. I guess I am a rat in my past life - active at night or I might be any other nocturnal creature - an owl maybe?

So basically my time zone is now a mess. I used to sleep at 4am or 5am and wake up at 11am. but now, this week, I am sleeping at 9am or 10am and waking up at 12pm. Seriously, I think I am killing myself slowly.....

and my hand

Yea it is on bandage. Why? Because I spend a lot of time working with the mouse.

and if you have not notice, even my ring finger and baby finger are tape together because the mouse is too small for my hands and long usage of it gives both my fingers cramp. So, I tape them together

Yea I know I am slowly going insane. I just need to find the time to take a good rest.... but I don't have the time ... yet. Too much work to do and complete...

and my 5 years old digital compact, Canon Ixus camera is dying. It is not dead. It is dying. The camera lens is no longer able to focus properly and sometimes it just won't switch on. And when it don't switch on, I have to bang it hard a few times (tips from several online forums I went to) and when it does and able to detect images, it doesn't mean the auto focus is working.

this is what happen when it is able to take pictures but the auto focus is not functioning

So again, I need to knock the side and the auto focus will come back on. And I will then get a clear picture like this below....

I guess I won't be getting my iphone already. I need a new compact camera for me to bring around easily. My D80 is just too huge to be portable. So at the moment I am eyeing Panasonic Lumix ZS3. I can't decide which colour.

Black is good looking...

... but red is SEXY

So which colour will you choose?

Stresssssssssssssssss

2009-10-14T07:19:00.004+08:00

As I stare at the blank ceiling in my room, room pitch dark and the only light source are the LED lights on the modem and router blinking away, I yawned non-stop and yet I can't fall asleep.

Head's spinning.

Head's stuffed with stress.

Head is filled with pressure to think about a lot of things, while the clock besides me starts ticking, every seconds and every minute passed by, the yawning become more frequent and i know i am starting to get more tired as the brainstorming goes on and on in my head, but I am still not sleeping.

I start to doubt myself, my competency, my creativity...my future job prospect.... maybe I am just NOT IT, just a little useless crap....

sigh..... my life is a bitch now........

and my stomach starts to growl but the searching for the Eureka is still going on in my head.....

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st Presentation

2009-10-05T19:54:00.008+08:00

Today is our first presentation to our client - National Kidney Foundation. (we are building a website for them)

Pop and I didn't prepare any speech prior to our presentation....

notice our similarity? our eye-bagS?

Clients quite like our initial ideas and designs... so there's more work to do now....

HORROR!!

so that are our horrid faces. we only have 4 weeks to complete the whole website.... not to mention there's a 6k words of thesis and a 30sec television commercials too.

Wish us luck!

"I've Switched"

2009-10-03T04:06:00.005+08:00

Dear all,

Remember to get one of this at Switch today! (it's only RM5) :P

Design by: EileenK

Have a wonderful weekend!

Love always,

EileenK

The Sepet Collection

2009-09-30T23:52:00.005+08:00

my collection of Yasmin Ahmad's films....

Are some of you surprised I actually buy original DVDS?

eh, i am not all 100% piracy one okay. (Let's not mention other dvds i have :P).

In 2005, when I bought the VCD of Sepet, I have to hide it under my bed so my mom won't find it because it cost me RM19.90. But today Mukshin on DVD is only RM13.90. So, please support the local film industry, buy ORIGINAL LOCAL film movies! :D

ps: waiting to add Talentime to my collection. Someone please do tell me when it is available on sale. :D

JCO is coming to Penang soon

2009-09-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

oh yea!!! my favourite donuts is here!!!

Can't imagine what will happen to me when i am back end of the year when i am on 3 months holiday. Guilty pleasures......

Ant Stinks!

2009-09-16T03:32:00.007+08:00

Yea! Seriously they do!

Did I actually smell an ant?

Apparently, I did --- after I squashed them.

Ever wonder why every time you kill an ant the rest of the ants goes hyperactive?

So here's how the story goes:

During my high school days when I was "active" in guiding, I used to have lots of fun building gadgets (those bamboo/"bakau" structure not the electronic devices) and there was once I got bitten by an ANT during one of those time. My hand was swollen like a mexican bun, it's itchy, caused me a fever and worst of all, I had to get a jab because I am allergic to the sting from the ant ( i think that's what the doctor said :P). So yea.. after that incident, I've made myself killer of all ants, created a pledge that I will kill all ants near me...

No-lah. Not that dramatic ... yet.

My room was under attack by ants for the past 2 weeks and from my investigation, I found out that the ants are marching to my room from a hole in the wall between my room n the room next to me. I have no idea what is on the other side of the wall as I have not seen that housemate of mine more than 20 times times over a year that I've been staying here. It is not that I am never home it just that I never hear her going to classes nor getting out of the house. Maybe when she did, I am not around. Anyway, back to the ants... I was having ants killing sprees over the past 2 weeks and it has become a normal daily routine to me. After each ants-extreme-killing session, I always wonder why is there always chemical-ish smell every time after that.... so I made a hypothesis that ants stinks.

To prove that my hypothesis is right, I did an experiment today. I squashed an ant and smelled my hand. (i know this is gross, but what are human senses for if we don't fully utilize them right?). So, from my finding, I AM RIGHT! My hand smells of a weird chemical smell. So to get more proof, I went up to google and type "ant smells" and found a Yahoo! answer link with the title "Why do ants smells when you kill them?"

From further reading from the answers, I found this link. let me summarize it:

the body of an ant (depending on genus and species) has an average around 10 glands producing different chemicals for defense, communication, alarm, trail marking and anti-bacterial and anti-fungal purpose.
therefore, when you crush an ant, the dead ant voluntarily release the alarm chemicals to alert other ants which will then the rest into hyperactive mode. This is when u start to see the rest of the ants "running for their lives"
BUT when you crush an ant, you don't just release the alarm system, you also release the anti-bacterial and anti-fungal chemicals (that's the chemical that got them to survive their kingdom living in soils which is the perfect place for fungal growth and that means they keep things sterile).

so some might ask, is it safe to eat a cookie that ants had been crawling on?

the article said, "The cookie was probably cleaner after the ants had touched it" and that the smell after you crush them "is not the smell of fear and death, but also the smell of true cleanliness and health"

more read ups: Wikipedia , JBC (Journal of Biological Chemistry)*long article

ok... now that H1N1 is on the wild, maybe we should grow more ants and help us sterilized everything around us. Ahahaa (I AM JUST JOKING) or maybe we should eat an ant a day to keep us healthy. Who wanna help me prove that, "An ant a day, keeps the doctor away"?

what do you think?

Crumpling Crumpler

2009-09-13T04:12:00.003+08:00

I AM BROKE! there goes my money from freelancing :'(

Roti Arab

2009-09-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

Do you know how Roti Arab (Arabic Bread) taste like? Have you seen it?

Today, I decide to give it a try as i ran out ideas of what to cook for myself and here's how my dinner looks like.

Arabic bread/Roti Arab is also known as pita bread to some. But it was printed on the packaging that it is called Roti Arab/Arabic bread. Anyway, I reheat this pita bread with my rice cooker (thanks to Pop's brilliant idea) and suddenly I realize how useful rice cooker can be :D

No Henrick. No soya milk this time. LOL! But instead I used DutchLady low fat milk as a substitute of coconut milk. Today i tried another type of curry paste and it tasted so much nicer, just like how my aunt would cook it and the pita bread really taste nice when eat with the curry. The curry looks spicy and IT IS indeed spicy. Although it is spicy, I finish the whole bowl of curry myself with 2 slice of pita bread and i feel like a dragon now - ready to blow out balls of fire from my mouth :D

Let just say, I just had a great dinner :D

Rendang Soya Milk Curry

2009-09-03T16:39:00.004+08:00

I cooked this last night. Some of you might wonder, why cook with soya milk. so EWWWW! Sure get diarrhea one!

Good news is, no i did not have any diarrhea! ahahha. it does taste a little weird, a little (not much) and soya milk is all I have since I do not wish to cook with coconut milk. It's healthier afterall u know :P

Bubba Gump Day

2009-09-03T15:23:00.007+08:00

2 weeks ago, Pop and I went to Bubba Gump @ The Curve for lunch. Food is not that nice but the settings is very homey, exotic and when it was lunch time, it was no longer an ideal place for me because it's too noisy. The sittings are set quite near to one another so.. imagine the noisy when everyone start talking at the same time ....

Anyway, I had a fun time there and not to mention the "rules" of the restaurant is quite unique and furthermore, it is influence by the award winning movie, Forest Gump.

These are the "rules" i am talking about:

when you are fooling around, cam whoring with a bottle of ketchup like me, doing nothing, this is the sign you need to flash to the waiter/waitress: "Run Forrest Run"

STOP FORREST STOP: when you need any assistance, or when you are ready to order, that is the car plate sign you need to show.

and that's Pop and me. We flash "Stop Forrest Stop" sign and the waitress came to our aid to help us take a pic. She insisted that we should put the sign back to "Run Forrest Run" before she take the picture :D

and that's Pop with the so called ping pong bat menu

which is attached to the bucket -.-"

and they even have a whole lot of different bottles of sauces behind me but unfortunately those are for display purpose only. not for my consumption. :P

that's my main dish. i forgot what it's called. Taste is average but I love shrimps and to be able to enjoy that as my birthday lunch, I just couldn't ask for more :D

and that's the cranberry yogurt drink. NICE! I LURRRVE cranberries

and that's Pop's fish and chip (kid's meal) and it comes with a paper ship! SOOOO CUTE!

and when I reach home at night, I had a surprise-dominos-pizza-birthday-party waiting for me at the living room. Thanks to all my housemates. You guys really make my day!

from left: Sherlyn, Jane, Me, Christine, Marli, Pop

see how the lighting at my living room is so cozy and romantic? basically the truth is, all the spotlights burnt out and the owner has yet to replace it for us. ahaha

as for presents, I get a few more books :D BRAVO!

I just love books! especially STORY BOOKS! Thank you!

Project: Experiment 1

2009-08-28T03:39:00.004+08:00

This is my first experiment.

These are not photo manipulated pictures

This is known as augmented reality where the user will need to flash a printed pattern in front of their web cam and the 3d image will appear as if its on top of the paper and that's going to be my proposal for my final project if everything goes well......wish me luck!

Stay tune!

You Are Smiling

2009-08-24T20:35:00.005+08:00

I know you are up there smiling down on me on this very special day.

Happy Birthday Bro! I Miss you and I love you more each year!

Hello Penang!

2009-08-21T14:18:00.005+08:00

Today, I obediently decide to wear this mask since i am traveling.

and i look just a ninja!

one last picture of me cam whoring just as the bus is leaving

19th August

2009-08-19T02:44:00.005+08:00

19th August is indeed a special day - for me.

And now it is even made more special because Yasmin Ahmad's last film, "Chocolate" is release today - just as the clock struck 12am at 0000hour - on my special day.

Some of you might have think this is so lame why-lah this video so special? It is just a Malaysian video nia mah. Last film only what!

NO! No! No!

Yasmin Ahmad had inspired me in so many ways. Her films, her work and her personality. She is truly someone that I respect and admire a lot, a lot, a lot for her talent and creativity in telling heart touching movies/films and TV ads during the festive season. In fact her contributions to the country's film industry is just beyond recognition. She's someone that I wish I will have the opportunity to meet with one day - but now there isn't anymore since she had just pass away on the 25th of July 2009 at the age of 51. :(

I think Chocolate is just BRILLIANT! The message in the video is just so powerful. What I get was - "Parents have a very important role to play to make this country a better place. Parents are the ones that will influence and teach their children to be just like them - racist or not racist"

Anyway, for those of you who have no idea what this film and 15Malaysia project is all about, do check out www.15Malaysia.com. It is a project initiated by Pete Teo (a local artist/singer whose songs i listen to) in collaboration with 15 local filmmakers and many local artist to produce 15 short films for the people of Malaysia in conjunction with the Merdeka (Independence Day) Month. One short movie will be release in every 2 days til 16th of September 2009 and all contents are available legally for download and share. Please show your support to the local industry and I can assure you that the films made are worth your time spend watching them. You will never regret.

Do watch the making of Chocolate too. It is after all Yasmin - the story teller, and Yasmin - the filmmaker's last movie. I am gonna so miss her, her blog, her commercials and her films.

ps: do feel free to express any of your thoughts about the video "Chocolate" or about the legendary Yasmin Ahmad here on my comment page.

A Dark Chocolate Affair

2009-08-16T23:31:00.006+08:00

Do you know dark chocolate turns women on more than a passionate kissing session?

Really?

YEAH! According to research, dark chocolates stimulates endorphin production which gives the feeling of pleasure. So now, we know why guys buy chocolates for girls on Valentine's Day and why girls love to receive them :P

Apart from just that, dark chocolates have many other health benefits compare to milk or white chocolate which taste better and sweeter. Dark chocolates are bitter but they are beneficial to health because:

it helps to protect the body from aging caused by free radicals as dark chocolates contains antioxidants ( nearly 8 times the number found in strawberries)
it is good for the skin
it helps to lower the blood pressure for individuals with high blood pressure
it helps to lower cholesterol - reducing the bad cholesterol by up to 10%
it contains serotonin which acts as an anti depresent

My favourite of all dark chocolates is of course the Lindt's 85% cocoa Extra Fine Dark Chocolate.

Price: around RM12

And today I found a cheap replacement for my cravings for Lindt's ...

Price: RM4

YES! Seriously they only cost RM4 per bar and they are imported all the way from FRANCE. Seriously this is a good bargain especially with all those health benefits and not to mention they taste good too. Not bad for the price. Normally, you can't even get a bar of dark chocolate at just RM4! Even the local brands are not that cheap. I am very choosy when it comes to chocolates especially those locally produced chocolate (eg: Beryls, Vochelle, Nestle and etc). Even M&M available in Malaysia market (which are made in Thailand) is a crap compare to the ones imported from the states. Yes! I am just that choosy - they just do taste different to me - as according to my taste bud.

Anyway, I bought 2 bars of Carrefour branded dark chocolate today (before trying it) and I regretted that I did not get more :( But this 2 bars are good enough to keep me satisfied and pleasured for a week. :D

Danger of Portable Gas Stove

2009-08-16T22:22:00.007+08:00

Few months ago I receive a forwarded email from my cousin about the danger of portable gas stove. If you have no idea, this is how a portable gas stove looks like

In the email, it says that a lady name Kaori, her mother and daughter, like all typical Japanese and Korean family was using the portable gas cooker to cook their meals during a family gathering party when suddenly the gas stove exploded and all three of them got caught on fire and suffered severe burns. Below is the picture of Kaori taken shortly after the incident (according to the email).

and below is the image of the malfunction gas stove

So upon reading the email, my aunt was urging me to discard the portable cooker I was using and buy an induction cooker instead. But that time, my friend, Lollipop loan me her induction cooker (which i mention in my previous post) which i failed to operate it and due to lag of time to buy a new induction cooker, I did not care much, ignore the forwarded email warning and continue to use the portable gas stove for a month.

Then this month when I came back to KL (after a month of holiday back in my hometown), my housemate happily told me that she just bought one of those portable gas stove when we went out together for groceries shopping. Then the next day, after our grocery shopping trip, she told me that while she was cooking breakfast, her stove suddenly exploded and the stove was on fire. Luckily she was able to remove the butane gas can fast enough to avoid further explosions and praise the Lord that she's safe and there were no injuries.

So today, we went out to get an induction cooker each.

my new induction cooker that comes together with a stainless steel pot which i bought at RM169.

I have no idea how safe this thingy going to be, but hopefully it is safer than the portable gas stove. This fellow has a few presets and the temperature and the time can be set accordingly to my own preference and there is even a PAUSE button! YES, i can pause while cooking halfway! how cool is that? hahhaha

one disadvantage of using this induction cooker is that I can only use with specific cookware - those that are made of stainless steel or those that have a magnetic field base. This is because " An induction cooker works like an electrical transformer: it transfers electrical energy onto the pot using a time-varying magnetic field" (wikipedia). That means, the teflon non-sticky pot that I love so much to fry eggs and pancakes that does not have magnetic response base basically is now useless with this induction cooker. DAMN IT!! That means, I will need to spend time scrubbing the stainless steel pot each time after I cook! *cries*

ps: that's the reason why I couldn't get the two eggs to boil (previous post). The pot I was using does not have any magnetic field and hence the cooker won't even heat up.

A Green Dinner

2009-08-14T21:34:00.004+08:00

One of my resolution for this semester is to stay healthy and eat more health benefit food. So for today's dinner, these are my ingredients.

1 green capsicum

Benefits of capsicum

good for the eyesight and smooth skin
helps the body ward off infections
has antioxidant properties
reduce cholesterol - prevent strokes and heart attacks
improves stomach digestion
help to speed up metabolism and help burn more calories - good for losing weight (i don't need this. I need to gain weight and add more body fats because i think curves are sexeyyyy)

18-20 lady fingers

Benefits of lady fingers (aka Okra)

superior fiber found in Okra helps to stabilize blood sugar
helps prevent and improve constipation
help to feed the good bacteria (probiotics) - similar to yoghurt
good for summer heat treatment - for those feeling weak, exhausted and suffering from depression
help to heal ulcer and keep joints limber
ideal vegetable for weight loss (again, i don't need this benefit :P)

I add in some garlic, an egg and oyster sauce. Stir friend it and below is the end results. This is my dish for tonight that i ate together with white rice (which is also home cook!)

I just feel so healthy!

coming soon

2009-08-13T02:59:00.005+08:00

'nuf said.

Love Breakfast

2009-08-13T02:48:00.003+08:00

Cooking an ideal healthy breakfast meal for myself

I just love pancakes!

Early Birthday Presents

2009-08-12T01:25:00.006+08:00

They say as we grow older, we began to hate birthdays because birthday means we are growing a year older. When I was in my teen years, I can't wait to get out of school, grow up and be young adults. And now that I am one, I am starting to feel the dreadful fear of aging. IF only I could turn back time, I would love to go back to those childhood days - the most carefree, worry-less and fun-ness stage in my life.

Unfortunately, I couldn't turn back the hands of the clock of life so this year, in a few more days, I am officially turning 2 dozen old (ok.. i just reveal my age). I am beginning to feel the fun of birthday celebration fading away BUT i still LURVEEEEE birthdays! Especially when I get to receive presents :D

And this year, I receive early birthdays presents from a few friends of mine and I would love to take this opportunity to thank them on my blog :D

- click on the images to see the tags -

Thank you Calyn and Henrick for the beautiful scarf.

Thank you WeeKeat and HuiChin for the Liverpool DVD.

Thank you Bonnie and ShinYi for the lovely butterfly necklace.

Thank you Dann for the CB card.

And that's not all yet. This year I have special presents delivered all the way from UK!!

I was so surprise when I saw the card that came all the way from Sheffield.

(Stella, u send this card from Sheffield right?) *hoping I am not wrong* hehe

Thank you Stella.

and lastly, the FCUK t-shirt from Pau which was delivered personally by her all the way from UK to me at Cyberjaya last night. :D

Thank you Pau.

and Pau, thank you also for the delicious Belgium chocolate truffles!

And there's 2 more presents I know I will be getting. One from mummy & daddy which I will not get until September (which I will definitely update here), and another one from myself which I am still unsure of what to get. Yes, i get myself own birthday presents every year for the past 3 years. It is one way of me rewarding myself and it is also an excuse to lavish the money I earn from my part time job I had over the July holidays. hehe How great is that?

Stay tune :D

Do I have a twin sister?

2009-08-08T02:24:00.006+08:00

Earlier, I was having dinner with my friends, happily chatting away when suddenly the waitress approach me and below is the short and rough conversation i had with her.

Waitress: Mana kawan laki? (Where is your boyfriend?)

Me: huh? *looking at her cluelessly*

Waitress: Laki yang selalu datang sama-sama (the guy that's always come here with you)

Me: ... *still looking at her cluelessly and trying to figure out if my understanding of the indonesian language is wrong anot. I look over to my friend to seek for help*

Then my friend told her that she might have gotten the wrong person but she insist that she's right and that I always go to that restaurant with a thin, tall guy who has almost shoulder length hair.

Maybe I have an identical twin sister out there whom I do not know off, or maybe there's this imaginary boy beside me all the time and only the waitress sees it.... (ok, i should stop talking nonsense. I am scaring myself and i think I should go off to bed now)

Good night!

National Chingay Competition 2009

2009-07-27T00:46:00.006+08:00

My first time photographing Chingay competition. Most of the pictures were taken from the back because the position of the stage the organisers prepared for photographers are not really that strategic. :P
Nonetheless, I am grateful I was given the "photographer" tag once again to capture the colours of Penang.
*click on the image to enlarge*

the team from Perak

the champions celebrating

the crowd at the event

My RED converse

2009-07-24T15:33:00.002+08:00

Have you seen me in my red?

St Anne 2009

2009-07-24T14:12:00.004+08:00

It is an annual event thingy for both my parents and I. We will make the trip to St Anne Church at Bukit Mertajam every year. As for this year, I manage to capture a few good pictures compare to last year because of the nice hot weather. Unfortunately, the sky was not as blue and the clouds are not as white as cotton as I wish they were.

Here are some of my snapshots:

the interior of the new church

a sculpture of Jesus on the cross

my favourite shot of the day: "I die on the cross"

"My body is put in a tomb"

the way up to the highest cross ...

For more pictures, check our my flickr

Bon Odori 2009

2009-07-24T13:49:00.004+08:00

As you all know, I was given the golden opportunity of a privilege pass to photograph Bon Odori 2009 by the organizer of the event. Unfortunately, I was not fully equip that night and hence, the pictures I took aren't as great. These are some of the pictures taken with just my D80 and the kit lens. No flash gun, no tripod!

Check out more at my flickr link

I am away, but i am not gone

2009-07-19T01:44:00.003+08:00

I am really sorry that I have not been updating my blog as often as i should be. I know I shouldn't give any lame excuse since there's so many happening things that are going on in my life at the moment.

Anyway, here's a sneak peek. I promise I will update more soon - when I am able to find the correct time and the mood to blog.

and that's my first photographer tag!! :D

Fun at Facebook Part 1

2009-06-24T23:42:00.007+08:00

Recently, I attended a Nokia N97 seminar and the way they market that "lousy" phone is equivalent to "this is the facebook phone. if u like-facebook, get-this phone". Then and there, I think Facebook is really overrated. Nokia is actually parasitizing Facebook's popularity to boost up their phone sales - but then again, this is the marketing technic - follow the trend. (*Sorry, I am an anti-nokia person and ironically, I am actually using nokia now*)

Facebook is really overated but I got to express my gratitude to whoever created Facebook. Since signing up around September 2007, Facebook has change a lot with applications like fluffly pet, superlatives and many others to the current ones they have which is pretty interesting that has been my daily dosage to keep me sane last month.

Take today for example, I spend whole day playing Hell's Kitchen (will talk bout this later) and then i stumble upon my friend's quiz result on my news wall.

I am not lying and this is not a photo manipulation with photoshop. Seriously they have this quiz: "What type of underwear are you?" I laugh out so loud that my mom thought i just had a hysteria medication or something.

Since I am toooooo free, and out of curiosity what kind of questions they will ask and what I will get, I decide to try it out and guess what... I AM 6-PACK PANTIES!!!

"You are as unpredictable as your underwear". ROFL!

I think the result is quite true about me in a way cause I do try to live my life to the fullest in every aspect and I can be serious whenever i need to be and can be really crazy when I want. Do I really have 6 types of panties? :P

If you think my results is hilarious, see below

SUPERMAN UNDER - roos!!!! coolest underwear ever!!

LMAO! Seriously whoever created this quiz is a genius!!! You make my day!

oki... that's for today. will continue the fun of Facebook Part 2 in another post. I am too sleepy to continue now. Nights.

(i am actually sleeping early. hohoho)

Multiply sucks!

2009-06-24T01:40:00.003+08:00

Seriously.... i am sick of multiply now... wrote quite a lengthy rants there and only have it to be deleted away. WTH!!!

but it is the only place i go to whenever i am emo about something i can't blog here.......so i will probably still stick to multiply...........

[PERIOD].

Photographing the Kids

2009-06-15T01:26:00.003+08:00

I really miss my gear and photography a lot! So when I went back last week for a day, I just can't help but to shoot as much as I can and when the kids came to visit, I had my time shooting them. :D

The Malaysian Coke Side of Life

2009-06-14T06:10:00.007+08:00

Finally I finish my web design 2 final assignment!! That means I am done with Year 2!!!

WOOHOOO!!

Time really flies. It was as if it was just yesterday that I first step into this university and in just a blink of an eye, I finish my 2nd year of my bachelor programme. :D

Let's pray I don't fail any of my subject this semester and that means I still have 1 more year to go before I graduate for the second time!

Anyway, here are the print screen of my website. I am not really happy with the whole design but then again, with the time given and the limited ActionScript knowledge, I am just happy that it is done now. The requirements for this assignment is to create a website for a product that incorporates batik designs into it. So I've decide to create a Malaysian coke side of story with some international and a touch of local content and influence. Feedback appreciated.

This is the main page

The Malaysian coke design page where it showcase the limited edition design bottles with batik design on it.

This is an upclose of one of the 3 designs I've created. Check out my DeviantArt for more.

The music page. Very last minute content idea....maybe i should have change it to some local singers... ahahhaa

This is the football page where it has links to the clubs in the Coca-cola Championship UK.

This is the sequence of the animation for the preloader for the site which i forgot to present to my lecturers during my presentation last Thursday. :(

p/s: the red in the pictures above are a little out of Coke's red because of the image quality I save in.

Eat Me

2009-06-08T20:17:00.003+08:00

as promise in my previous post, this is the video that both Lollipop and I did for our short CGI movie. :D

Enjoy!

ps: I am so tempted to get the new Sims 3!! should i?

OGFA?

2009-06-05T22:32:00.008+08:00

They say, "TGIF!" (Thank God, It's Friday!) and I say, "OGFA?" (OH GOD! Friday already?)

I have not been a big fan of Fridays for the pass few weeks. (You'll know why if you have been a vivid visitor to my blog if you aren't, just read my previous posts =P).

According to the schedule, this should be my last Friday of torture and next Friday will be a ROCKING Friday!!! I'll tell you all about it next week :D

Back to my "creativity" life .... I had a week of torture - sitting in front of my 22" LCD working on my 3D character modelling not to mention the sleepless nights and how many times i screw up and have to redo the whole thing all over again. Seriously.... its not a walk in the park, its a trip to hell and back for me, but despite all that, I did enjoy the whole experience and gain a lot of knowledge through self exploration and trial and error! That's the most important part right? Enjoy what you do. The process might be a hard work, but the end results are all that matter to put a smile back to all the stress and pressure.

So here are the pictures of my alien-head-ChunLi to share. Pardon me for the screwed up face. other than that hope you like it:

texturing the patterns to the clothes with the boobs there is really hard

this is the craziest part - 247 pieces of planes to build the hair

i had fun putting make up on ChunLi :D

i love her head gear - but the folds are quite ugly

side view : do you just love the boobs and the butt? :P

this is the tricky part: getting the skirt to flip and move as she walks

I would also like to express my gratitude to my friend Aaron for helping with the pose drawing of ChunLi.

THANK YOU!!!!!

So after 7 days of non-stop 3d-ing marathon and my sleepless nights, I went to take a nap just now and I dreamt about my 3D ChunLi! WTH right? I am actually dreaming about it! ahahhaha this is what i call - POSSESSED!

So stay tune for my next update on "Malaysian Coke Side of Story" .....

Heavenly Delights

2009-05-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

For this weekend, I'll be working on my 3d character ChunLi which is slowly driving me insane!!!! (which means more stress and more sugar intake!!)

And Thanks to my brother, my sugar supply for the weekend has been saved by the heaven!!!

Why?

Because he sent me a box of heavenly delights!

YES IT'S THE JCO DONUTS!!

He dropped by my university yesterday morning to pass me 10 pieces of donuts and also the mouse that he help me to get from Low Yat! :D

LOVE YOU BRO!!!

Remember the ChunLi that's I've been ranting in my previous post?? Where I mention that I am about to fail? I think I am still at the brink of failing considering the amount of time I have left as well as how slow I model and not to mention applying the texture, skeleton, and animating the walk cycle as well as creating animated expressions! Anyway, here's a few screenshots of my work-in-progress of it.

that's the head of the botak Chun Li. She looks like an alien to me :P

the ear itself has taken me 5 - 6 hours to model it....

and here's the wireframe of the whole body and the costume.

I wanted to share with you the model of the body but fear that I might be flag for pornography. =P So.. its just the wireframe for now ok?

Hi Ms Gilen

2009-05-26T03:08:00.005+08:00

As mention in my previous post, "The Green Devil", I was working on my first CGI movie and today is D-day! The presentation day. It is really all hard work for both Lollipop and I for the whole weekend editing it, and not just that 2 days, those other days spend on filming the green screen has been an uphill task as well. Keying out colours, creating animation and effects, stitching the video, composing and syncing audio are all very hard but in the end, both of us had fun - even when we have to stay up late in front of the computer half asleep editing them. Anyway, I will share the video with you 2 weeks from now after I make a few changes to them as instructed by the lecturers today.

After the presentation, Lollipop and I decide that we should give ourselves a little reward for all the hard work, so we decide to go to Domino's for pizza - it is the nearest restaurant here in Cyber and both of us were craving for something cheesy.

I placed my order and the cashier ask for my name and after I pay, they gave me a tag as the receipt - with my name on it. Look below.

I am Ms Gilen for 45mins today at Domino's Pizza! lol!

Terminator, My Saviour!

2009-05-23T21:32:00.007+08:00

I woke up this afternoon around 12pm when my housemate knock on my door to tell me that the pipe in the toilet is broken, and therefore, there won't be any water for shower.

What a good start to my weekend....

So i brushed my teeth with drinking water and since I was super hungry, I decide that, maybe I will cook myself sausage with scramble eggs. I went to the living room (which has been converted into a mini kitchen - since the kitchen in my current house has been transform into a bedroom) only to find out how unbearable the "kitchen" condition is (this is what happen when you are living outside with other people). So, I decide to change my cooking plan to boil the eggs instead by using the induction cooker that Lollipop loan it to me in my room. I just can't cook in dirty conditions and not to mention the germs and dirt and the stinky rotten smell.

So I set up the induction cooker in my room and guess what.... I do not know how to use it!!!

What a loser I am... sigh.

I am a very technical person, loves gadgets and operating an electronic device has never been a problem to me.... till .... today....

un-cook eggs and the induction cooker

I can't even get the cooker to heat up and it auto shut off by itself after 20secs and I got frustrated after trying it operate it for 30mins and finally I gave up and decide to eat Chipsmore with milk for lunch - which is a very bad idea... because milk makes me feel sleepy!

Then as time pass my stomach began to growl like crazy and that's when i decide to call Mr Terminator for help!

And barely 15mins, Mr Terminator arrived at my doorstep and that's when I feel that I am save from destitution!!!

the pizza box looks so cool!!!

Nice, delicious food cheers me up anytime!! :D

The Green Devil

2009-05-23T02:25:00.003+08:00

It's Friday night, and the weekends is here once again. Everyone should be rejoicing because its the weekend - no school and no work and that means P-A-R-T-Y!!!! but for me (for the next 3 weeks), weekends are my nightmares! It is not the time to rest, but the time to work, work, and work!

So here's a sneak peak of what I'm working on tonight, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow!

My first ever CGI movie.

Thanks to Mr Awe-so-me for being the main cast! You are just simple awesome!!!

Don't expect it to be of Hollywood standard cos I am really running out of time working on so many assignments simultaneously. But I hope, the end product won't be a disappointment like my Multimedia Imaging assignment - where i totally screw up the whole thing in the end. :(

Crossing my fingers and praying and hoping i could stay awake and motivated to finish my work.

New Moon

2009-05-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

The movie poster for the sequel of Twilight is out.

Now the countdown to 20th November begins......

Why you'll love a Mac

2009-05-18T02:21:00.003+08:00

Few days ago, I was having a group meeting with my group mates and as usual, we discuss about the progression, the work, the designs and task allocation for each one.

So, one of my group member wanted to show me the sample files he have downloaded via the internet. So I plug in his pendrive to my mac and open the folder and turn to look at him (as a notion to ask him which file to open).

friend : "All the files in the folder"

As I was very blur since i have not slept the night before, I have no idea how many files were there in the folder and decide to hit CMD+A+O.

Then right after pressing the O button on the keyboard, I then realise that there were 100+ eps files in the folder!!!!!!!! GOOODNESS GRACIOUS!! 109 files to be exact! and they are not picture files, but .eps files. (if some of you have no idea what eps file formats, they are actually Adobe file formats of vector art specially save for printing and copyright purposes.)

I was no longer sleepy nor blur and i screamed, "WTH? 100 eps FILES??!!! "

4 members out of 5 other members in my group who are PC user and supporter had a wicked smile and wide grin spread across their face and was so eagerly waiting to see my Mac crash as my mac opens up Adobe Illustrator (a heavy application just like photoshop) so that we could view the files.

and to their dismay, my mac manage to open up all the 109 files and I can even do an expose of all the files and we were able to view 100 files in small thumbnails and it makes them go "WOW!"

WICKED!

Anyway its Monday again, and I am 4 weeks shy from freedom ( initially its supposed to be 3 more weeks, but since the lecturer decide to extend another week of my semester, I still have 4 more weeks to go)

So everyone, remember to drink more water, stay away from public places if you can and wash your hands more often as swine flu is already here in Malaysia. Take care and may you have a good and productive week!