When New Year Doesn't Feel Like It

For the pass 3 months, I've been in and out of this hospital. When it was christmas, they have the Christmas decorations on, when it was near Chinese New Year, of course they have the decorations on too.

But somehow, being at the hospital itself doesn't give me the feeling of celebration nor the joy of the season. It aches my heart to see patients after patients on their respective bed with drips connected to their veins through a needle... and I wonder what if I am in their place, will I be able to endure the pain through all the constant needle pricks? Will I ever have the courage to look at myself in the mirror when I am bald?

Someone asked me why have I look so haggard lately. I have no idea how do I answer them. Indeed, I am very tired of everything. From dealing with housework to working freelance on some project to get a side income for me to spend during my last semester which will be starting soon in just less than 20 days time and to helping out my aunt with the baking and to some house chores. Then my family made a remark recently that I don't pay attention to them when they are talking to me. It is not that I don't want to, it is because my brain is constantly thinking and working that I can't help it at times it just switches to something else or it just switches off and I have no idea what's going on. It is like I am tune to another FM wave all of a sudden without me knowing it - in short, I am really exhausted - mentally and physically. I feel like I am slowing burying myself in a mining land full of dynamites...

I know 2010 is going to be great, but will I get through it feeling fabulous and joy?

I will if I constantly believe I will. So I know I will - 2010 is going to be fabulous! (pardon me, i have to always remind myself about this)  After all, I am an OX.  Oxen works hard and will endure all hardship coming his/her way!

Luck and Blessing Needed

I've just recently accepted a quite a long term freelance projects and seriously need your help in praying and blessing me with lots of luck, endurance, patience and creativity. 

It is gonna be really taxing (energy and sleep wise and creativity) as i am also working on my final degree project.....

So wish me luck, health and whatever that I will need. Bless Me! 

Thaipusam 2010

*Warning. Some pictures might be disturbing to some *

My second year visit to Penang's Thaipusam celebration

The above 3 pictures was taken while I was stuck in the traffic jam while on my way to the printer's shop to collect something on my client's behalf. Definitely a good day for me as I get to take some shoots despite being stuck in a jam and thank God, I have my slr is with me :D

I am still thinking should i submit my pictures for competition as I still think my previous year  pictures are much much more nicer than this year's. What do you think? As for my last year's pictures, click here